Health, Happiness and Best Wishes for the New Year!
Sunday, December 8, 2013
Wednesday, December 4, 2013
My focus lately has been on regaining control – control over my health, my art and my life in general. Then I remembered a year ago today is when I found a lump in my breast. I realized that any control I think I have is probably an illusion. Oh, I can control my actions and reactions, but "There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio ...."
And I also realized – through some playing around with paint, no less – that things usually resolve themselves fairly well when you just let go. Sometimes I wonder how long I'll have to beat my head against the "loosen up" wall before I actually learn the lesson. It's been almost thirty years since my high school art teacher first said it to me and I'm still struggling to get it.
|You can barely see the muddy mess underneath the green paint.|
The bad news is I tried to control the acrylic paint and ended up with a muddy brown mess. The good news is I didn't throw it in the trash like I wanted to and instead simply walked away for a bit. When I came back, I squirted out four blobs of paint and spread them out with my fingers. Then I grabbed a paper towel and dabbed around until I had them blended together. It worked so well I grabbed another canvas board and some different colors to try it again. Now I have a couple of the ideas running around in my head started instead of still doing laps.
As for the cancer crapiversary, I'm three months out from finishing treatment and being declared cancer-free, still waiting to feel normal again. Still wondering when every little blip on my physical radar won't make me think, "Oh crap." Maybe when I stop focusing on the little blips and pull back to take in the big picture.
As my husband would say, "Ya think?!!"
Sunday, December 1, 2013
Actually, I didn't draw anything on my birthday – we were too busy celebrating. Today, though, I could have moved on to the latest tool the hubster selected, but I was using it on a craft project most of the day. I'll show you the project when I get it finished up, hopefully before the weekend when we decorate for Christmas. Yep, it's another craft I found on Pinterest. That place is a big distraction right now, but at least I'm making things instead of just marking them to make ... well ... never.
By the way, I'm looking at this picture of me with my 9yo and 11yo and you know how it makes me feel?
Short. It's starting to make me feel short.
Friday, November 29, 2013
He likes to challenge me. Ergh. It took me three days to get that red part of the set drawn. Talk about weird angles and things getting lost in the shadows.
And I don't think this went as well as the vice grips. I was trying to recreate what happened pretty spontaneously and that never works.
Next? He's got a whole mess of them in a line out in the garage.
Sunday, November 24, 2013
On a positive note, it was a kick to paint those vice grips and my husband has a whole garage full of tools. An illustrated catalog would take me years, but the old ones like this with a cool patina might be entertaining for a few days ... weeks ... okay, probably years.
I'm still shocked at how simple the painting was. I put down a coat of wet grey and then flung brown, darker grey and blue down into it. Then I walked away and let the watercolor do what it does. It's easier for me to do that if I walk away. Otherwise, I can't resist messing with it and it gets ... well ... messy.
Thursday, November 21, 2013
punks minions are getting restless. Almost a month's worth of holiday ads have been percolating in their minds and Christmas is still 34 days away (yes, they're keeping track). I do not thank my advertising brethren for this early "gift" and I'm happy to say I've never created a holiday ad myself.
On top of that, they're both recovering from colds that they passed on to me, so we'll say tempers are a little short. I'm assuming that's why I got yelled at when I made them a new treat ...
... wait for it ...
... because I never made them before.
I guess that's good, right?
Tuesday, November 19, 2013
It's also great for making me feel ...
... well ...
... hugely inadequate.
Does anyone really have time for all of those projects? I've pinned 55 crafts I'd like to make myself and 18 I'd like to do with the punks.
It ain't gonna happen. I think I need to get over it and delete a few of those boards, but not before I show off my Thanksgiving Tree. What can I say? It's been a rough year, but I've realized we have a lot to be thankful for. I'm also looking for ways to combat the I want-I need-gimme-gimme-gimmies that I hear all day long.
Hey People, there's a holiday before Christmas and it's pretty darn important, too. At least I think so.
Saturday, November 16, 2013
I had so much fun talking to the other artists, learning how they utilize their sketchbooks and what materials they use. There was talk of staying in touch and going for a sketchcrawl together which I am totally up for. What a talented bunch of people – it was truly an honor to participate!
Friday, November 15, 2013
Pen In Hand helped organize the show and did a fantastic job. It's set up like a library or small book store, so you can grab a book, settle down on a stool or even in a comfy chair and look through it at your leisure. I did just that for about an hour, along with several other patrons who walked through the gallery.
I don't just draw in them. I talk about my kids, family and dog. I let loose my sarcastic, cynical side and even occasionally vent, whine and rage. And I don't really post every single stinking page. Still, I'm more proud of this work than anything else I do because it is personal. That's me on those pages – good, bad and ugly – in all my unretouched glory.